Don’t wait for her to go to tell her how special she is.
Tell her how much you like the way she touches your hand when you’re distracted
and how you play in silence on guessing the song she’s whispering when she
forgets that you’re around.
Confess to her how you don’t care about Gods or his
superpowers, but that you freeze every time she assumes that authority look
when talking about religion. Leave your fears behind and tell her you want to
introduce her to your family. Tell her she’ll love your aunts and uncles, that they’ll
show her all the scratch books from when you were little.
Don’t wait for her to leave to tell her how beautiful she
is. Do you know those nights when she wears a dress and puts red lipstick on
her perfect lips? That is the perfect moment. Even though you have the same
feeling when she’s just wearing a pony tail and sweat pants, cussing while she
checks her emails. It’s just, she’ll never admit, but all that organizing was
just for you. And, believe that she takes care of those small details even
knowing you probably won’t notice it. She won’t even notice the way other
people look at you when you leave the house. It’s because when she’s holding
hands with you, everything else loses interest, and when you’re not there, she
wishes the whole time that you were. It only takes a long look in her eyes to
know that she’s yours. Don’t wait for her to go to realize that either.
Don’t wait for her to go to understand that she needs care. It’s
because under that iron mask there’s a soft, caring heart. And that she’ll fall
in love again every time she gets a call, a sudden surprise, a kiss without
warning. She’ll remember the most beautiful love declarations you've ever made,
but she will also not forget the ones that hurt her. Learn how to take a deep
breath and shape the words before you talk. Even during fights, you won’t want
to her to cry due to your insensibility. Because when that happens, she’ll
think you’re just like the others.
Don’t let her go, just because she’s one of those who when
decides to leave, doesn't look back. It will be effortless to send her flowers
or letters, make promises or acts of craziness, talk about love or changing. She
knows it’s not easy, but she knows that path by heart.
Don’t let her go just so you know how empty your life would
be without her. You know there’s people out there like her, some even more
attractive than she is, maybe. But you also know that no other skin feels like
hers, and that it’s in her lips where you feel the taste of being home. You know
you could forget about all this for just a night of adventure in someone else’s
arms. But the next day you wouldn't wake up with her kisses, with a boring look
on her face while waiting for you to wake up so she can start playing with you
under the blankets and makes the day start with laughs the neighbors could
hear. There wouldn't be this feeling of staying in bed the whole day hugging
each other.
So, don’t wait for her to go to finally tell her you want
her to stay. And that that bottle of wine is just another motive to convince
her. And that you think it’s sexy to see her walking around the house naked or
with just a jersey of your favorite team on. Tell her she can use the empty
space in your closet and bathroom and that you don’t mind watching shows that
are not you’re interested in.
Make her read in your eyes that love won’t make her leave. Love
always embraces and asks for a little more, because it knows the difference it
makes in every minute. Love makes it all worth it for the risks you might take.
Love cares and makes you compromise. Love asks. Love stays.
